I Can’t Go the Way I Came

house-landedAlmost as soon as Dorothy arrives in Oz, she decides she can’t stay.  She has to get home.  However, it immediately becomes clear that arriving by tornado is a lot easier than leaving by tornado and she tells Glinda, “I can’t go the way I came.”

“No, that’s true,” replies Glinda.

It’s a very obvious truth, although not perhaps as obvious as “I don’t think we’re in Kansas anymore.” It is also a very significant truth, because if Dorothy could go back the way she came – there would be no story, no journey. The tornado would come, sweep her back and she would learn… nothing (not to mention the lack of movie, musical, book series, spinoffs, reboots, etc.)

And let’s face it, it’s always about the journey. Whether it’s the character in a book we’re reading (or writing), a movie we’re watching, or in our own lives, it’s all about the journey and what changes it, motivates it, or causes it to go completely off the rails – before the happy/satisfactory ending, we hope.

So now I am looking at my own.i-cant-go

Here we are at the end of the year which seems like the end of one particular journey. Since November I’ve been looking at my goals, dreams and vision board and I’ve found myself in a bit of a depression.  Although I’ve made incremental changes and some baby steps forward, nothing compared to what I’d hoped for at the beginning of 2016.

With 2017 right around the corner (yes, less than three weeks away) I find myself wondering about how I might do things differently.

And the answer which occurred to me is that I can’t go the way I came.

einstein-quoteAlbert Einstein said “We can’t solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them” which is, in essence, the same message as the one from the Wizard of Oz. I find myself reviewing the thinking – or lack of thinking and acting – which has held me back.

It all comes down to the habits which lead to actions. The habits that work, in other words support my goals, and the ones that don’t.  Those terrible periods of self-sabotage which we all go through.  I’m finding myself taking a close look at both of these.

I’ve decided that this is my journey for the next few weeks, followed by the year to come.  I need to start at the beginning (ah, but that moment in the movie is a topic for another blog post), look at where I’ve been successful and do more of that – bullet journaling, morning pages, support from friends – along with being honest with myself about what holds me back, and if possible what are the triggers and reasons for that. I don’t have the answers yet. But I will.

That’s the journey, remember?

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